This will sound stupid but I’m a 21 years old girl and I like having sex while looking at my self via my mirror or looking at my masturbstion recordings.
I grew up isolated from others.
It wasn’t intentional, for some reasons, my mom doesn’t want me out in the world so i live in a fenced house and not allowed outside the fence. I had a private teacher and right now, I’m currently attending online classes. But it’s not like I’m in a prison or anything, me, my Mon and family do go out for fun occasionally.
As I grew older, I started feeling this sweet sensations that always makes me want to tguch myself, I will often push my breasts up to my mouth and lick my nipplas. It always feels nice, it’s gets me very wet and fired up.
Recently, I checked Google and it said it’s something called
autosexual. I never knew there was a word for it.
At first, i was visiting parn sites, The more i watched pern, the more i touch my self.. which increased my sexual urge. I was particularly interested in shemale perns. To me,it just feels satisfying to see a girl facking a girl with her own dick.
I would slowly touch myself while watching those films and somehow, it got to the point where i started touching my viginal and slowly rolling my fingers around it.
Although it took me a while to actually insert my finger into my pussy because it was painful.
Each time i get too horny, i would insert the finger half way in and just enjoy the little pleasure i get.. it hurts too much if i go too deep. tho just that half way in was enough for me back.. I will rub my cit slowly and finger fuck myself. it was both painful and sweet.
Now, I’ve I gotten used to it and my finger can now go all the way in, sometimes, l even use two fingers. I have sax with my self as many times as I want daily and I enjoyed it. It gives good sleeps.
One day, I decided to record myself while mgsturbating, I don’t know what actually got into me, I was probably bored and wanted to try something new. So as I finger myself, I was recording it… just seeing myself through my phone while I was finger facking myself gave me the first body shaking orgasm.
It was like a rush of pleasure through out my entire body.
My cum was a little watery like I squirt and I felt a bit weak and satisfied. From there on, I would occasionally use my mirror or my recordings while masturbating, as long as i can see myself doing all those sexual stuff, that’s all I need.
I have a big sized mirror in my room that l use. It displays
almost my entire body. So, I will just lay down in front of it, fully naked.. rubbing and shaking off my catoris and fingering myself.. splashing my cumm and squirt all over the place.
Sometimes, I will stay on my bed, and use my recordings instead. I no longer visit pern sites that much, although they do turn me on but not as much as seeing my videos.
I’ve thought of ordering a dildo online to spice things up but I’m afraid it might get into my mom’s hands. She is best friends with the gateman.
If I ever get my hands on that dildo, I don’t think I’ll ever get out of my situation. It will become difficult to settle down in the future, I might even be a lesbian right now without knowing. Although I’ve not felt attracted to anyone elsr but myself my whole life.. and I’m curious.
I know this isn’t normal,
because l’ve never read a story about anyone having the same sexual feelings on your page or anywhere else before. That’s why I’m sharing mine.
What would you advice me to do?. I can’t run from home, I have no where to go and I love my family, so that’s out of the picture. And I can’t have sex with our gate man either, like what one idiot told me on Facebook lol.. because that’s the only way I socialise, through Facebook, Instagram and twitter, and tikok.
So advice me oh. Thanks.