Before you judge me, know that; Love is one strong feeling that can turn our world upside down. It makes us do things we never thought we were capable of, and it gives us a sense of security and happiness. Though if misused, it can lead us to do things that are harmful to ourselves and those around us.
Who would’ve thought I would be writing a story like this, sharing the details of my personal life with the world. But I believe that my story could serve as a warning to those who are in a relationship and are thinking about using s*x enhancement drugs.
I met josh at a friend’s wedding, and it was love at first sight. He was, funny, sweet and decent, i respect him alot. We exchanged contacts at the event and after a few chats, We started dating.. as time goes on, we found ourselves in a serious and committed relationship.
Our relationship was perfect, or so l thought.
At the beginning, Our s*x life was good. I can still remember the first time we did it.
It happens to be a raining day.. i think fhe rain amplified the whole thing because, that was a night I will never forget.
I’m not sure if he was on any s*x enhancement back then but… it was mind blowing. I’m the type of girl that quickly gets satisfied during s*x. 30mins of s*x is totally ok for me. I easily get org*sms and it doesnt really take much to get me to squir*t.
That evening, we were actually just watching a romance movie untill it started raining which ofcourse, resulted into a power outage due to the storms..
As soon as the rain started, the atmosphere in the room changed and we found ourselves k*ssing gently to the sound of the rain. He was actually a professional when it comes foreplay.
Only few men knows how to make a lady comm during foreplay.
I was wearing a short gown that day and he was putting on a jean trousers. we laid side-ways on the couch and was facing each other. so as we were k!.ssing.. he took his hand to the back of my as$, shifted my G/strings to the side and f*ngered the sh*t out of me.
I was mo*ning to the sound of the rain and I didn’t know when I came all over his fingers. I’m sure he had no idea I came so he just kept f*ngering me while my p*ssy kept gulping out cu.mm.. I was just laying there and enjoying the pleasure.
After some minutes, he told me to stand up so l can remove my gown.. I stood up to remove it while he removed his trouser.
When I was done, I laid back down and we resumed the same position. But this time, he insert my bre*sts into his mouth and was s*cking my nipp|*s… while still stroking my p*ssy with his finger.
He did that for like five minutes and when I was about to burst out another barge of cume, he removed is finger. then stood up, re-arrange me into a m.ssionary on the couch.
And that was how he started smashing the life out my v.ginal. He was so sweet back than and I never want to share him with anyone. He was stroking me really hard and strong… my body and voice was shaking and before i knew it, I squir”t and came at the same time.
The squir’ting was really big.. the force pushed his d*ck out and i splashed it all over the place. It was raining outside and raining inside… he liked it. Immediately the water stopped, he quickly insert his d*ck back in and.. my p*ssy was pouring out comm with every stroke. He also came eventually and we washed up and went to bed.
The rain gave me goosebumps and I slept like a baby that night.
So one day, i was washing his clothes then found some pills in it. I confronted him and after alot of pressure, he confessed to me that it a s*x enhancement pill. I asked him why he was taking them and he said he has been taking alot of suger lately and it has reduced his performance in bed.
He said he was only using it so that he can satisfy me. Me and josh are not married but we have s*x everyday. I was always at his place, i practically moved in with him..! guess that was one of my mistakes.
I told him that our s*x is fine but he said no.. that he wants me to be fully satisfied so that I will not look at other Men. He was very determined and serious so I agreed but i told him to take it easy. I was actually happy and grateful that I have a man that will go through extents miles to see me satisfied. And I was also happy that I get to enjoy some more thrilling s*x.
But things started to change… At first, I didn’t mind it. I thought the enhancements would spice up our s*x life and bring us closer as a couple. Not knowing that it would be the beginning of the end for us as a couple.
What I didn’t know was that these drugs were taking a toll on Josh’s health. He started experiencing side effects such as headaches, nausea, and difficulty in maintaining an er*ction without the drugs.
But he was so addicted to them that he.
couldn’t stop using them. I tried talking to him about it and expressing my concerns, but he wouldn’t listen.
At first, josh would only use s*x enhancement drugs occasionally, and it did make our s*x life more exciting. But soon, I noticed that he was becoming more and more dependent on them. He would make excuses to use them, saying that it would help him perform better and last longer.
I began to feel like I was not enough for him and he needed these enhancements to feel satisfied. It made me question our love and our relationship.
He became more obsessed with his performance in bed and would often compare it to our earlier experiences. He would constantly talk about trying different products and would get frustrated if I didn’t show the same level of enthusiasm as him.
What was once a source of excitement and pleasure for us, turned into a source of pressure and discomfort.
He started spending more and more money on these products, neglecting our financial responsibilities. He would often hide these purchases from me and It didn’t matter whether we were in the mood or not; as long as he had taken the drugs, we had to have s*x.
Our relationship became all about s*x, and I felt like I was losing the emotional connection I had with josh. It seemed like he didn’t care about me, and all he wanted was to satisfy his physical needs. I felt neglected and unloved, it even affected my self-esteem and mental well-being which is one of the reasons why I’m writing this to you.
I honestly don’t know what to do. A friend told me that Love should not be dependent on performance or artificial enhancements. It should be based on love, trust, and genuine connection.
And if someone feels the need to use such drugs, it’s a sign that something is not right, and it’s time to seek help and address the underlying issues.I don’t know who to call for help, that’s why I reached out to you. Please keep me Anonymous.